Dear one,
I know how your heart yearns. It yearns to be held, to belong, to be filled with days of purpose and connection. There is a deep desire to find your partner, the one. The desire to be claimed, to be heard and seen. To be loved. The yearning can be so deep at times that it leaves an empty feeling in it's wake. A sadness.
Instead of the feeling of fullness of this partnership, you are left day to day with just yourself. Maybe a string of relationships that don't pan out. Maybe long stretches of solitude. Always wondering, when is it going to be my turn? Where is my partner? Why is it taking so long? Will it ever happen? Will I live out the rest of my life alone? Why do others seem to have it so easily?
Dear one, I know you are hurting. I know you feel a sad emptiness. I know you want to be chosen. But it's not time yet.
It's not time yet, because there is more for you to learn about loving yourself. The space is required in your life to give you time and energy that is needed for you to go into the depths of your own heart. It's time now to let go of all attachments to how you think it's supposed to be, so that you can be fully present for the moment it does show up. It requires you to stop searching outside of yourself. It requires all of your attention. All of your love. So that you can show up fully with all of you.
This is so, because it may not look how you are expecting it to look. It may shatter the ideals you have built up and the boxes you desire to check. It may be even better than what you can imagine, but not at all what you were expecting. It requires you to love yourself deeply, to know fully what you need on a soul level. It requires you to let go of the fantasies, so that you can see the reality. The reality may not fit what you thought it was supposed to look like. Therefore, if you are not fully present, you might miss it. You might not recognize your partner if they walked up to you.
You haven't been ready.
So take this time for yourself. Let go of the old patterns, the ideals, the boxes to check and the fantasies. Be with yourself. Get to know your own heart. Learn how comfortable it can feel in your own skin. Be the company that you love spending time with the most. Do the things that make you feel alive and passionate. Feel.
Feel what it feels like to love deeply. Not for anything or anyone specifically. Just for the sake of knowing the depths of your own heart and understanding how capable you are of LOVE.
Be in a state of love within yourself, be fully present. In this state of being, you are available, you are ready.
So have patience, my dear. The time is coming for this to unfold and it will be your turn. Show up to what is present in your life right now. Love yourself deeply. Choose yourself. And let it unfold in perfect timing.